Tuesday, 13 August 2013
Dancing Debi's Dotty Diary!!! : Fantasy perhaps.. but I done it!!
Dancing Debi's Dotty Diary!!! : Fantasy perhaps.. but I done it!!: Another week in fantasy land and a very happy ending I don't know where to start today. I haven't blogged for a while.. my world ...
Fantasy perhaps.. but I done it!!
Another week in fantasy land and a very happy ending
I don't know where to start today. I haven't blogged for a while.. my world has gone crazy. On one hand things became really hard financially and to be honest could have been pretty depressing.. I'm on lock down.. the government and Mr. Tax Man have scre*ed me over again.. just when you think you're relatively free of them. But, as the saying goes, there's always a flip side to the coin!!!
Everything was beginning to get on top of me.. the only escapism I seemed to be getting was my location shoots with some great photographers.. I met some new ones.. Chris Bright, the crazy man with the hat.. we done a sunset shoot at the local country park and then the following Saturday, the lovely Chris Mansfield that seemed to want me to believe he was no good.. it was all lies, we got some amazing images that day.. I went from a boudoir belle to a mad woman trapped in a bunker dressed like some kind of over-aged doll.. at one point.. I was even flying lol. Then I had my shoot with Matthew Allen.. we hit the wilds of the woods and I climbed trees, walked around the forest on a sunny day dressed in an evening dress and got some extremely funny looks.. My little fantasy world was real...
Whilst on a break from one of these shoots, I received a very interesting email. It was from a lingerie company, saying that they had seen and liked my work and that they would like to invite me to a meeting to discuss becoming one of their models for their mature range of lingerie soon to be launched.. Suddenly.. it was all beginning to come together. They invited me up to London to meet the owner and designer and discuss the details of the shoot.. just by chance.. this was going to happen smack bang in the middle of the week that I had booked my annual leave.. to rest my tired self and recharge my batteries. OH if only I knew.
That week .. was last week.. it has to be.. I must say.. one of the craziest weeks I've had in .. forever!!!
As the week drew closer, I was approached by various photographers to work with them.. we schemed and made arrangements.. Not being one to turn down an opportunity to strutt my stuff, I soon found myself booked.. Monday to Saturday, with just Tuesday and Wednesday to spare,, although really, that wasn't spare at all.. I was off up to London!
On the Monday, I was being photographed by Charlie,, Amthai Photographer.. he is a very well published gentleman and wanted to "shoot" (NOT literally).. a REAL woman.. he turned up nice and early and we made our way to the beach... We had a fab day.. we even had our own security guard.. some guy called Luke tagged along with us. Charlie, a lovely man went about his business totally un-fazed by our company..,, all I cared about was "is my belly looking huge" and "do my wrinkles look awful" lol.. this was the shape of things to come.. the week was amazing.. I shot with my good friend John Garrett.. for him, I was back up at the old castle ruins in Hadleigh, dressed as a gypsy girl at first and then a kind of 50's style lady.. When we were doing the gypsy shots we were joined by 4 tiny tots.. all wanting to be "Modlers" lol... Daddy had to take photos and it was really sweet.
On Friday, I was shooting with another amazing talent... Simon Alston Fox.. I had seen some of his work and admired his style.. sophistication to the max.. at one point I felt like I could almost have been Audrey Hepburn.. his shots added a certain something.. the lighting was amazing and I'm really happy with the results.. I look like me but more sophisticated. It was another really good fun day.. and I cant wait to work with Simon again.
My good ol' friend John P(the one who's fault all this is) had contacted me during the week, there was just one image that he needed, he wanted.. he had to get it... he asked me if I would help him out .. of course I could.... at that stage.. I didn't realise that I would be spending my Saturday morning.. freezing cold in a swimming pool.. waiting for the sun to come out.. but .. WE GOT THE SHOT!!!
Now.. getting back to the Lingerie people.. Wednesday morning.. I woke up, had barely slept.. what was wrong with me?.. in my younger day.. this used to be a common thing.. waking up.. getting ready.. popping on a train into town.. meeting agents or stylists or designers.. many times getting totally knocked back.. but ocassionally the odd success story.. here I was 25 years later.. getting ready to do it all again..
I felt sick, my stomach was churning over and over like I had the whole of the foreign legion in there.. my nerves started to get the better of me and I started to become anxious... I said to my son.. I cant do this... he looked at me - "why? You can".. I looked at him again.. and I remembered something he said to me months ago, when we were in the middle of an argument about money and my job.. his words to me were.. "You push me to achieve mum... what about you?.. why don't you push yourself? What happened to YOUR dreams?... do what YOU want to do.. for YOU"... that was the turning point. It was at that moment I realised.. everything I've been trying to do in the last few months.. encouraging people, male and female alike of similar age to me.. "BELIEVE IN YOURSELF".. don't give up on your dreams.. you only live once... everything.. it was coming together.. and it was happening to me.. for a split second there I was willing to give up on my myself but he was right.. I HAD TO DO THIS.. not for anyone else.. but me.
So.. off we went. My boy dropped me to the station and I sat on the train.. I'm not going to pretend I wasn't nervous .. of course I was.. not only was there a chance I could get a complete "No thank you you're not what we're looking for" .. I also knew I was having to meet my worse nightmare again.. the London underground.. but.. I did it. I got there with minutes to spare.
When the owner and the designer came to meet me.. I suddenly felt at ease.. we sat there, drinking coffee in Cafe Nero by St. Pauls Cathedral.. passing items of lingerie to each other across the table.. chatting enthusiastically about the shoot, the product and basically most things.... She still wanted me!! She had seen me in the flesh.. and still wanted me to be a part of her campaign. I signed the contract :-)
At 48 years old.. I have done it.. I have followed my dreams.. battled for them.. worked hard for them.. yes I know.. right now it is only one job.. it might only ever be one job.. I may never make my fortune this way.. but what does that matter?.. When the day comes and I'm sitting with my grandchildren with my dentures in and my blue rinse.. I can say.. I DID IT!!! I can't tell you how that makes me feel... I really can't... I'm so happy.
One thing though.. to all those that think I'm now going to kick up my heels and give it up.. You couldn't be more wrong... NO I'm not going to stop .. definitely not now.. I'm going to keep going, keep working and keep believing... I'm gaining a reputation with some of the photographers I've worked with as being a "little nutz"? I can't disappoint them can I?... So.. I will keep climbing trees, keep standing in freezing cold swimming pools and most importantly KEEP MY DREAM ALIVE!!!
It may not be much to some... but it's mine!! :-)
I don't know where to start today. I haven't blogged for a while.. my world has gone crazy. On one hand things became really hard financially and to be honest could have been pretty depressing.. I'm on lock down.. the government and Mr. Tax Man have scre*ed me over again.. just when you think you're relatively free of them. But, as the saying goes, there's always a flip side to the coin!!!
Everything was beginning to get on top of me.. the only escapism I seemed to be getting was my location shoots with some great photographers.. I met some new ones.. Chris Bright, the crazy man with the hat.. we done a sunset shoot at the local country park and then the following Saturday, the lovely Chris Mansfield that seemed to want me to believe he was no good.. it was all lies, we got some amazing images that day.. I went from a boudoir belle to a mad woman trapped in a bunker dressed like some kind of over-aged doll.. at one point.. I was even flying lol. Then I had my shoot with Matthew Allen.. we hit the wilds of the woods and I climbed trees, walked around the forest on a sunny day dressed in an evening dress and got some extremely funny looks.. My little fantasy world was real...
Whilst on a break from one of these shoots, I received a very interesting email. It was from a lingerie company, saying that they had seen and liked my work and that they would like to invite me to a meeting to discuss becoming one of their models for their mature range of lingerie soon to be launched.. Suddenly.. it was all beginning to come together. They invited me up to London to meet the owner and designer and discuss the details of the shoot.. just by chance.. this was going to happen smack bang in the middle of the week that I had booked my annual leave.. to rest my tired self and recharge my batteries. OH if only I knew.
That week .. was last week.. it has to be.. I must say.. one of the craziest weeks I've had in .. forever!!!
As the week drew closer, I was approached by various photographers to work with them.. we schemed and made arrangements.. Not being one to turn down an opportunity to strutt my stuff, I soon found myself booked.. Monday to Saturday, with just Tuesday and Wednesday to spare,, although really, that wasn't spare at all.. I was off up to London!
On the Monday, I was being photographed by Charlie,, Amthai Photographer.. he is a very well published gentleman and wanted to "shoot" (NOT literally).. a REAL woman.. he turned up nice and early and we made our way to the beach... We had a fab day.. we even had our own security guard.. some guy called Luke tagged along with us. Charlie, a lovely man went about his business totally un-fazed by our company..,, all I cared about was "is my belly looking huge" and "do my wrinkles look awful" lol.. this was the shape of things to come.. the week was amazing.. I shot with my good friend John Garrett.. for him, I was back up at the old castle ruins in Hadleigh, dressed as a gypsy girl at first and then a kind of 50's style lady.. When we were doing the gypsy shots we were joined by 4 tiny tots.. all wanting to be "Modlers" lol... Daddy had to take photos and it was really sweet.
On Friday, I was shooting with another amazing talent... Simon Alston Fox.. I had seen some of his work and admired his style.. sophistication to the max.. at one point I felt like I could almost have been Audrey Hepburn.. his shots added a certain something.. the lighting was amazing and I'm really happy with the results.. I look like me but more sophisticated. It was another really good fun day.. and I cant wait to work with Simon again.
My good ol' friend John P(the one who's fault all this is) had contacted me during the week, there was just one image that he needed, he wanted.. he had to get it... he asked me if I would help him out .. of course I could.... at that stage.. I didn't realise that I would be spending my Saturday morning.. freezing cold in a swimming pool.. waiting for the sun to come out.. but .. WE GOT THE SHOT!!!
Now.. getting back to the Lingerie people.. Wednesday morning.. I woke up, had barely slept.. what was wrong with me?.. in my younger day.. this used to be a common thing.. waking up.. getting ready.. popping on a train into town.. meeting agents or stylists or designers.. many times getting totally knocked back.. but ocassionally the odd success story.. here I was 25 years later.. getting ready to do it all again..
I felt sick, my stomach was churning over and over like I had the whole of the foreign legion in there.. my nerves started to get the better of me and I started to become anxious... I said to my son.. I cant do this... he looked at me - "why? You can".. I looked at him again.. and I remembered something he said to me months ago, when we were in the middle of an argument about money and my job.. his words to me were.. "You push me to achieve mum... what about you?.. why don't you push yourself? What happened to YOUR dreams?... do what YOU want to do.. for YOU"... that was the turning point. It was at that moment I realised.. everything I've been trying to do in the last few months.. encouraging people, male and female alike of similar age to me.. "BELIEVE IN YOURSELF".. don't give up on your dreams.. you only live once... everything.. it was coming together.. and it was happening to me.. for a split second there I was willing to give up on my myself but he was right.. I HAD TO DO THIS.. not for anyone else.. but me.
So.. off we went. My boy dropped me to the station and I sat on the train.. I'm not going to pretend I wasn't nervous .. of course I was.. not only was there a chance I could get a complete "No thank you you're not what we're looking for" .. I also knew I was having to meet my worse nightmare again.. the London underground.. but.. I did it. I got there with minutes to spare.
When the owner and the designer came to meet me.. I suddenly felt at ease.. we sat there, drinking coffee in Cafe Nero by St. Pauls Cathedral.. passing items of lingerie to each other across the table.. chatting enthusiastically about the shoot, the product and basically most things.... She still wanted me!! She had seen me in the flesh.. and still wanted me to be a part of her campaign. I signed the contract :-)
At 48 years old.. I have done it.. I have followed my dreams.. battled for them.. worked hard for them.. yes I know.. right now it is only one job.. it might only ever be one job.. I may never make my fortune this way.. but what does that matter?.. When the day comes and I'm sitting with my grandchildren with my dentures in and my blue rinse.. I can say.. I DID IT!!! I can't tell you how that makes me feel... I really can't... I'm so happy.
One thing though.. to all those that think I'm now going to kick up my heels and give it up.. You couldn't be more wrong... NO I'm not going to stop .. definitely not now.. I'm going to keep going, keep working and keep believing... I'm gaining a reputation with some of the photographers I've worked with as being a "little nutz"? I can't disappoint them can I?... So.. I will keep climbing trees, keep standing in freezing cold swimming pools and most importantly KEEP MY DREAM ALIVE!!!
It may not be much to some... but it's mine!! :-)
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